"Let's play it safe then," said she, after it became clear that their relationship would not culminate into the 'I do' business. And thus began a new chapter in their lives. One, where they were to live in the moment as they enjoyed each others' company and grew fonder of it, with time.
But the two saw it differently.
He, knowing the fact that it was not meant to be, never thought of holding himself back. He was of a kind who believed in expressing his thoughts for her every time he felt like doing it. No riders attached. No inhibitions. Always speaking his heart!
Deep in his heart, he was sad to think that in the time to come, she would embrace someone else....and that he could not help, but accept it as it is.
Nonetheless, admiring her kept him jolly. In her he found something, which was absent in all other women he knew of. Absent even in that "someone special".
His constant adulation left her wondering whether he was speaking in earnest, or was this plain infatuation (which, in turn, prompted him to think that can't infatuation be earnest - serious in intention, purpose or effort?....in fact he was hurt, though that was never her purpose.....He never liked the idea of putting labels to his feelings!).
That's how the guy looked at it.
However, she, knowing that they were unable to change their fortunes, was always (or let 's say, 'quite often') on a look out for ways to make it easy for both of them.
Never ever reciprocating to his chivalrous comments. "Because I am sensible", she reasoned.
Not giving a slight hint of what she thought of him. 'Good' and 'worthy' was all he knew of her perception about him.
The fact that she vied for his company, and liked to spend quality time with him spoke a lot of her feelings for the guy. Also, at times, she did express regret over the fact that the situation was not in their favor.
But then that was it.
But then somehow, he was always under the impression that she was holding herself back. May be her past was haunting her, or every day she was reminding herself that he was just a friend.
Whatever.
It is not as if the guy wanted her to break all the barriers. No, never.
Observing her for hours, capturing her mood swings and knowing her more, was all he wanted, in the little time they were left with. And yes, he was waiting for that one meeting which would be different from the rest.
She could make him happier by making him believe that she was enjoying every moment with him; by not thinking about the future; by going with the flow; and by not reminding herself that he was just a friend when they both knew that he was actually just a friend.
This way, he would feel light about the whole thing.
But the two saw it differently.
He, knowing the fact that it was not meant to be, never thought of holding himself back. He was of a kind who believed in expressing his thoughts for her every time he felt like doing it. No riders attached. No inhibitions. Always speaking his heart!
Deep in his heart, he was sad to think that in the time to come, she would embrace someone else....and that he could not help, but accept it as it is.
Nonetheless, admiring her kept him jolly. In her he found something, which was absent in all other women he knew of. Absent even in that "someone special".
His constant adulation left her wondering whether he was speaking in earnest, or was this plain infatuation (which, in turn, prompted him to think that can't infatuation be earnest - serious in intention, purpose or effort?....in fact he was hurt, though that was never her purpose.....He never liked the idea of putting labels to his feelings!).
That's how the guy looked at it.
However, she, knowing that they were unable to change their fortunes, was always (or let 's say, 'quite often') on a look out for ways to make it easy for both of them.
Never ever reciprocating to his chivalrous comments. "Because I am sensible", she reasoned.
Not giving a slight hint of what she thought of him. 'Good' and 'worthy' was all he knew of her perception about him.
The fact that she vied for his company, and liked to spend quality time with him spoke a lot of her feelings for the guy. Also, at times, she did express regret over the fact that the situation was not in their favor.
But then that was it.
But then somehow, he was always under the impression that she was holding herself back. May be her past was haunting her, or every day she was reminding herself that he was just a friend.
Whatever.
It is not as if the guy wanted her to break all the barriers. No, never.
Observing her for hours, capturing her mood swings and knowing her more, was all he wanted, in the little time they were left with. And yes, he was waiting for that one meeting which would be different from the rest.
She could make him happier by making him believe that she was enjoying every moment with him; by not thinking about the future; by going with the flow; and by not reminding herself that he was just a friend when they both knew that he was actually just a friend.
This way, he would feel light about the whole thing.
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